I used to be so cruel to this body…

I used to be so cruel to this body.
And I certainly abused this heart.

This was right after one last devastating break up, but one that brought completion to what felt like an entire karmic wheel. And I finally said enough is enough.

No more bullshit.

In this clip, I believe I had just started seeing my lovely partner; (now fiancé! 💍) he’s always been and still is such a solid wonderful man. Our relationship started a foundation of truth an honesty—one I was prob searching for my whole life. And it continues to feed itself 6 big, expansive years later.

When I look back at old videos of myself, (I lived out of a suitcase and traveled all over the country and world and taught pole dancing for a good 3 years 2016-2019) it’s wild to recognize how everything has changed; harmonized really. How much kindness and grace I’ve let myself receive; a huge growth space in it being self-sourced.

Maybe I don’t “look” like this anymore, and I think sometimes we can get so fixated on this bizarre totem, and we get stuck thinking about “getting back to” somewhere… physical.

I’ve been thinking about how we vilify aging and our changing bodies that have held so much rich experience for us…

And I think about this girl, all her abs and her hard body… and how she just wanted love.

And I’m so glad I figured out how to give that to her, and how to help so many others dip into that endless pool of being.

A softer heart often leads to a softer body, too.

In theory it should be “simple”… giving ourselves love… but so many of us know the painful truth navigating that tumultuous landscape.

When we embody this though- love- and savor every drop, the ripples reach communities and collectives not even yet created.

✨A woman who stands in love with her body, becomes a sanctuary for another to do the same.✨

We’re all out here doing big work, so that we can actually in turn, just be. 🤍

Truly honored to be here along side of you.
Love you
Xoxo
Emily Rose 🌹