Trust Enough to Let. It. Go.

As I sit here, un -wine-ding, after a brilliant “Witches Circle” Coven Class, I can’t help but reflect on the powerful energy we just shared to close out the year. 

There was so much to celebrate, honor and claim space for. But the mirror exercise- where we practiced “talking big” to ourselves - ya know, the way you would hype up your best friend simply because she amazing- reflected so much (painful & beautiful) truth for so many of us.

So I’m here thinking…

Why is it that we hold onto things, even when we can hardly bare the weight? When we know letting go is so damn sweet? Why is it that for so long, we have thought so little of ourselves? Why is it that for so many of us, the person we see in the mirror, becomes a visual representation of our most critical and self sabotaging thoughts?

Is it because things are always heavier before you put them down?

Yeah, I think that visual is actually quite helpful, and impactful…but I also can’t help but think it’s this... 

We have to TRUST enough to let things go, and within that trust we find truth. 

AND when we find the truth, when we start to really know ourself…

 We can show up critical, or we can show up kind.  

And at the end of the day, so many of us are still learning how to be kind to ourself well into our 30’s 40’ s 50’s etc. 

I mean, how many of us have looked in the mirror at one point in our life, could have even been this week, and literally thought to yourself (maybe even said out loud) “Wow I look like shit today.”

Bueler? Bueler?

I think to some extent, we have all shared something of this nature.

But let’s go even deeper. 

What if it's that, even subconsciously, we reject or refuse the idea of being seen, by other people and especially by our own self. 

And talking sh*t to ourself is just a shield. 

So, if we hold onto that- the shield - horrendous self talk and hyper critical narratives, we’re protecting ourself from the possibility that's on the other side… trusting others and being seen. 

Don’t get me wrong. Trust is scary and hard AF to embody. My guess is, if you’re like me, most of the events in your life have led to wanting to extend your perfectly manicured middle finger to that idea. And maybe, some of us have been unwillingly handed these narratives through our lineage, society and…our moms. (ooof i know too real)

But here’s a fresh look on trust. 

Trust, truly embodying it, is refusing stagnancy, complacency, flatline- basic-ass-existence, in your life, and instead, leading with intuition- the OG of personal power and choice. 

In witchy terms, it's quite literally, “As above, so below. As Within, So Without.”

So I will leave you with one final question - 

What are you willing to let go of? 

What are you tired of holding? 

Don’t bring that shit into 2023. 

And as one of our members so perfectly said in class today,

 “We don’t live long enough in this life, to be assholes to ourselves here and now.” 

Let. It. Go. 

Xoxox Emily Rose